such is the way of cold water
even when your teeth are chattering by 6:46 am, you still see david goggins in your head, squeezing his features in disgust, calling you a p*ssy.
you’ve been standing in the bathroom stall, with the smell of stale soap lather and cold concrete that you are now used to. you are streaming WASTELAND. & brent faiyaz is pleading with her to waste time with him.
20 minutes & you realize you’d be p*ssier if you back down now; if you wrap your butt with your arsenal towel and stroll back out to boil this bucket of water.
It’s too cold.
but you’ve put a cap of dettol disinfectant in the thing, & you can’t just waste it.
so, you just do it.
mindlessly. like all the courageous things you have ever done in your life.
you just scoop and pour, & your legs go jelly, & your heart rate shoots up, & your arms quiver.
such is the way of cold water by 7:12
from emmanuel